Let me out, let me in,
I’ve giving up, not giving in.
‘Cause together we are not one,
We are nothing.
It has been exactly one month since the soldier and I started dating, and what a whirlwind month that was. Shortly after our first date/weekend together I found out that he was moving to another state in the coming month (story of my fucking life) so we decided to keep it casual, have fun and date for the short time that he was in Austin.
Fortunately, on top of being a great lover, he was also a fun person to be around. We’ve spent every weekend together this past month and I couldn’t be happier. I genuinely believe that if he wasn’t leaving we could have had something special. However, when I began to have (strong) feelings for him I panicked. I made the conscious decision to detach myself emotionally and somehow, this backfired on me. Today him and I ended things and although I’m not exactly thrilled, at the end of the day it was for the best.
What is it about soldiers that makes them so irresistible? I wish I knew.
Quote of the day:
Him: You deserve someone better than me.
Me: This is something all my friends and family know about me; I love the hardest but I let go the fastest. Don’t worry, I’ll be fine.